Lyrics

Ceiling cracks got more to say than I do
Clock keeps moving but I’m stuck in this room
Sheets feel heavier than concrete lately
Every breath feels borrowed, maybe
Phone lights up, I don’t answer
What the fuck would I say anyway
I rehearse conversations with ghosts
Then bury them before daylight

I don’t sleep, I just disappear
Eyes wide open, frozen in fear
If this is living, I missed the point
I’m just counting days I can’t avoid

This bed’s a cage, this room’s a grave
I rot where I lay, day after day
Mattress prison, no appeal
Padded walls made out of guilt
I don’t dream, I don’t rest
I just exist, fuckin’ stressed
Crushing depression on my chest
Mattress prison I confess

I hate the man I see in the mirror
Looks like me but he’s meaner
Calls me weak calls me useless
Lists every promise I ruined
I used to feel something like fire
Now I’m numb or I’m wired
Every pill, every vice
Just another way to kill time

They say “get up,” like it’s that easy
Like gravity ain’t eating me
My body’s here, my soul’s gone
Stuck between fuck it and hold on

This bed’s a cage, this room’s a grave
I rot where I lay, day after day
Mattress prison, no appeal
Padded walls made out of guilt
I don’t dream, I don’t rest
I just exist, fuckin’ stressed
Crushing depression on my chest
Mattress prison I confess

I’m not lazy
I’m not broken goods
I’m just drowning quietly
In a place I should feel safe
Every morning feels like a loss
Every night feels like a threat
I don’t wanna die
I just don’t wanna be here like this

GET UP
STAY DOWN
TRY HARDER
BLACK OUT
I FIGHT ME
I LOSE ME
THIS BED KNOWS
THE TRUTH, SEE

This bed’s a cage, this room’s a grave
I rot where I lay, day after day
Mattress prison, no appeal
Locked inside the way I feel
If I vanish, don’t be shocked
I been gone since the alarm clock
Crushing depression—concrete weight
Mattress prison decides my fate

If freedom’s standing up
Then I don’t know how to move
So I’ll stare at the ceiling
Till it starts staring back too