Lyrics

They tell you to quit the thing
They don’t tell you the thing changes shape

Wake up wired deja vu
Mirror knows what I run to
Cold sweat bad math
Same urge wearing new masks

Phone says grind bank says no
Impulse buys just to feel control
Every hit got a different face
Same escape new taste

Smile tight bite my teeth
Trade my peace for dopamine
Clock ticks loud walls cave in
World on flex I’m boxed within

Tell myself don’t snap today
Didn’t feed it so I’m okay

Didn’t cave
Didn’t fold
Didn’t lose control

Everybody’s doing better than me
Yeah it looks that way on screens
I’m still standing in the debris
Better than yesterday

Didn’t win
Didn’t save
Didn’t vanish in the pain
Say it straight don’t celebrate
Better than yesterday

Bills stack high patience thin
Cravings clock in as discipline
They say just stop like it’s a switch
Like I don’t know the cost of this

I quit one thing picked another
Same old hunger different cover
If it numbs me I want in
If it distracts me let it spin

White knuckles full disguise
Functioning chaos in a tie
Still chasing quiet in my head
Still bargaining with the edge

Tell myself don’t fuck it up
Didn’t fall that’s enough

Didn’t break
Didn’t cave
Still awake

Everybody’s doing better than me
Raise a glass to stability
I’m not healed but I didn’t bleed
Better than yesterday

Still tense
Still loud
Still fighting the comedown
Say it slow say it plain
Better than yesterday

It’s not the vice it’s the void
It’s the silence I avoid
If it fills me for a bit
I’ll abuse the shit

Screens glow numbers rise
Validation’s a cheap high
They don’t show the crash at night
When you’re alone with your mind

Say I’m behind by whose rules
Your highlight reel or my truth
I didn’t win but I didn’t rot
Still breathing that’s the plot

Everybody’s doing better than me
Yeah I hear it constantly
But I didn’t let the dark eat me
Better than yesterday

Not a win
Not a save
Just survived another mental cage
Say it loud don’t sugarcoat
Better than yesterday

It’s not clean
It’s not pretty
It’s progress

Deal with it